Struggling

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Over the past couple of days I have really been struggling with many things.. I am depressed and no one really seems to care. I keep things hidden because no matter what I do its always the same thing

” You bring this on your self.”

” You are a bad person”

“You need to loose weight”

“You need to stop being such a baby”

“It’s all your fault Kris is the way she is”

“You made her this way”

So why bother telling anyone anything if all you do is get blamed for everything no matter what.  I have learned that you are not supposed to regret the choices you make in life. You should learn from them.  Yes, I never regret any of my choices and I have learned alot from things.

My struggles with all of that has been making me rethink the blog and its entirety! I mean granted the name and domain was given to me by a dear friend of mine so i just went with it and made it my own. I have been struggling with do I start something new that is my own or just continue this one..   I am torn i really am.. For years i have used Standing Still and now this. So its like what do i do..

The struggles at home are reflecting heavily on my blog choices.

 

 

 

 

A New Year

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Well today marks the second day to the New Year and I am not sure how I am liking it so far.  I mean the 1st of the year was OK, but today we got an unexpected call that no one really wants to here, the partners mother passed away this morning and it was a complete shock to us all. I mean complete shock.    I think once the funeral is done and over with things will kind of get better and semi easier., though who knows really.. Its a New Year and a new Start!

Other than that  2020 promises to be a good year. Well we can hope so anyway.  I am sure I will still have my challenges this year as I did last but that is about it..  No resolutions that are never really kept anyway.   I do not see the point.. Yes, I always say i am going to blog more but i have not see that happen yet! I say that i am going to do this and that and nothing has happened yet! So no resolutions. Just see how the year goes and hopefully it is a good one!

Well, It took me a bit to get back to this post and finish it. Alot has happened over the 6 days.  My Partners birth mom passed away unexpectedly and its been a mess here. Going through her things now and the funeral. I just want to scream. I can not seem to catch a break honestly. I am over ran!  Though I am hoping that once things settle down I will be able to sit and write more, though who knows..  Well I better get this posted.. Will be back soon with an update!

 

 

 

 

Old Photo

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Skipping around on the challenge and today I chose to do An Old Photo of Me!   This one is Back in March 2010! It was taken at Blachfeild Army Community Hospital in Fort Campbell, Kentucky.  I had to take Diana into the ENT that morning to see if she needed a second set of tubes in her ears!

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This one was Taken when back in 1997 I think. I can not remember. Lord knows I do not have the original still though if I did I would probably burn it! I look horrible and it was before kids

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This next one was Taken 9.3.2000 – While I was in the hospital right after Christianna was born!

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That is all I am sharing with this. Lets see some of yours

 

Songs I currently Love

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What are some songs that I currently love. Well that one is a bit difficult because I have alot of songs that are my favorite!  I am a music person, so I pretty much listen to anything and everything!  Music has always been a passion of mine. Though here are links to a few songs that I do like and can listen to them over and over again without getting tired of them!

Ed Sheeran – Thinking out Loud 
Justin Timberlake – Mirrors
Backstreet Boys – No Place
AJ McLean – Boy and a Man

Those are just a few of my favorite songs that I love, but I do have a lot more. The list can go on and on but I figure I will leave it with those.  If their is a song you think I should listen to that I might like. Please feel free to drop the link in the comments and i will listen to it and tell you what I think of it..