Struggling

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Over the past couple of days I have really been struggling with many things.. I am depressed and no one really seems to care. I keep things hidden because no matter what I do its always the same thing

” You bring this on your self.”

” You are a bad person”

“You need to loose weight”

“You need to stop being such a baby”

“It’s all your fault Kris is the way she is”

“You made her this way”

So why bother telling anyone anything if all you do is get blamed for everything no matter what.  I have learned that you are not supposed to regret the choices you make in life. You should learn from them.  Yes, I never regret any of my choices and I have learned alot from things.

My struggles with all of that has been making me rethink the blog and its entirety! I mean granted the name and domain was given to me by a dear friend of mine so i just went with it and made it my own. I have been struggling with do I start something new that is my own or just continue this one..   I am torn i really am.. For years i have used Standing Still and now this. So its like what do i do..

The struggles at home are reflecting heavily on my blog choices.

 

 

 

 

A New Year

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Well today marks the second day to the New Year and I am not sure how I am liking it so far.  I mean the 1st of the year was OK, but today we got an unexpected call that no one really wants to here, the partners mother passed away this morning and it was a complete shock to us all. I mean complete shock.    I think once the funeral is done and over with things will kind of get better and semi easier., though who knows really.. Its a New Year and a new Start!

Other than that  2020 promises to be a good year. Well we can hope so anyway.  I am sure I will still have my challenges this year as I did last but that is about it..  No resolutions that are never really kept anyway.   I do not see the point.. Yes, I always say i am going to blog more but i have not see that happen yet! I say that i am going to do this and that and nothing has happened yet! So no resolutions. Just see how the year goes and hopefully it is a good one!

Well, It took me a bit to get back to this post and finish it. Alot has happened over the 6 days.  My Partners birth mom passed away unexpectedly and its been a mess here. Going through her things now and the funeral. I just want to scream. I can not seem to catch a break honestly. I am over ran!  Though I am hoping that once things settle down I will be able to sit and write more, though who knows..  Well I better get this posted.. Will be back soon with an update!

 

 

 

 

Hello December

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Hello December, You come with ice which is most definitely not welcomed but it is part of who you are!  I hope you are an eventful month, though knowing my luck you will not be.  It marks yet another month at the end of the year as we are starting a new year soon!     So far you have been fairly good. I managed to actually get a desk,  so I have that set the way i want it and plenty of room to move around now!  I am happy about that though.    I just hope the month gets better than worse.

So we are sitting here near the end of December and things have gotten semi better but not as much as I would hope.. It has been hectic but  i am getting through it.

So maybe In January a better year with more writing .We will see.. See you in January!

Pet Peeves

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My biggest Pet Peeves seems to be a bit of a longer list because it is several things that drive my up the wall.

  • Saying you understand what it is like being away from your children when you have no kids at all.  That is the biggest one right there.
  • People saying things that you supposedly said and never did!
  • Those who walk right into you because they are to busy texting and not paying attention to anything else.
  • People going through your personal things.
  • Misspelled words just because you do not pay attention to what you are typing.

Those are just a few things that bother me, but the list is way longer than that lol. I just do not want to bore you!   I will see you tomorrow with another post as I play catch up!