In Quarantine is not how any of us expected 2020 to turn out. Being stuck in the house non stop with people who generally are really cranky and moody you tend to want nothing to do with them. It honestly does not help when they despise your child and have not real good reason to. Just because she is not your normal teenager. He is his own person and that is how they are raised. Constantly hearing how bad of a job I am doing raising him and that I am not a mother to him. Makes me think honestly that I am a bad mom and an unfit parent at that. They don’t realize that it weighs heavy on me, I did my best to raise my children and to take care of my children.

Though lately it seems that no matter what I do our say is wrong. I know that no one likes him and that’s the thing. He knows this mainly because no one will say two words to him and they tiptoe around because they are scared of what a 14 year old. Do they not get this is new for him. Not to go out and do things, because of the virus. And partly because don’t think a child needs to go anywhere. That kids should be seen and not heard. I’m sorry I am allowing my child too heave a mind of his own. I have never once told my child that they could be quiet. Then I am told he spends to much time in his room on the phone, watching something or drawing.. Since when is that a problem because I am not making him do your bidding and all the fucking housework.. I am sorry but when you have 3 other adults in the house who is actually capable of doing a few things but wont for one reason or another. Then it all falls back on me then I am told that I am lazy as well because I do not do it right away. God forbid I get up and sit down for a bit and wake up before I jump into chores..

I am the type of person who needs coffee to wake up most mornings.. But seriously when you go to bed at almost 5 am because no one will let you sleep before then and you are getting 4 hours sleep yes you need alot of coffee! Sadly I don’t get that. Maybe 2 cups a day if I am lucky!   Sometimes I get lucky and am actually able to sit and relax before jumping into anything. Though honestly that is a rare chance.

Anyways I hope the Quarantine life is treating you better.
Stay Safe and lots of Love!





Over the past couple of days I have really been struggling with many things.. I am depressed and no one really seems to care. I keep things hidden because no matter what I do its always the same thing

” You bring this on your self.”

” You are a bad person”

“You need to loose weight”

“You need to stop being such a baby”

“It’s all your fault Kris is the way she is”

“You made her this way”

So why bother telling anyone anything if all you do is get blamed for everything no matter what.  I have learned that you are not supposed to regret the choices you make in life. You should learn from them.  Yes, I never regret any of my choices and I have learned alot from things.

My struggles with all of that has been making me rethink the blog and its entirety! I mean granted the name and domain was given to me by a dear friend of mine so i just went with it and made it my own. I have been struggling with do I start something new that is my own or just continue this one..   I am torn i really am.. For years i have used Standing Still and now this. So its like what do i do..

The struggles at home are reflecting heavily on my blog choices.





Old Photo


Skipping around on the challenge and today I chose to do An Old Photo of Me!   This one is Back in March 2010! It was taken at Blachfeild Army Community Hospital in Fort Campbell, Kentucky.  I had to take Diana into the ENT that morning to see if she needed a second set of tubes in her ears!



This one was Taken when back in 1997 I think. I can not remember. Lord knows I do not have the original still though if I did I would probably burn it! I look horrible and it was before kids


This next one was Taken 9.3.2000 – While I was in the hospital right after Christianna was born!


That is all I am sharing with this. Lets see some of yours


Worst Habits


Let me see what are some of my worst habits. I think the biggest would be that  I pick at my nails even when i want them to grow I still manage to pick at them. Though lately I have been good and managed not to.    Another would be that I tend to keep everything , I have been slowly going through and deleting alot of things that are not necessary as well as throwing things away!    What are some of your habits?

Pet Peeves



My biggest Pet Peeves seems to be a bit of a longer list because it is several things that drive my up the wall.

  • Saying you understand what it is like being away from your children when you have no kids at all.  That is the biggest one right there.
  • People saying things that you supposedly said and never did!
  • Those who walk right into you because they are to busy texting and not paying attention to anything else.
  • People going through your personal things.
  • Misspelled words just because you do not pay attention to what you are typing.

Those are just a few things that bother me, but the list is way longer than that lol. I just do not want to bore you!   I will see you tomorrow with another post as I play catch up!


Win My Heart


I am a bit behind but will be catching up. It has been hectic here and if you have read any of my past posts or just subscribing to this one you know why I get behind and hectic!  Anyways the post for today is 5 ways to win my heart!

5 ways to Win my heart

  1. Buy me coffee! Seriously, I am a coffee drinker and will love you forever if you buy me coffee!
  2.  Spoil me – No i am not saying gifts and things. Though they are always nice. I mean love and attention. Cuddle me – I love to cuddle!
  3.  Never expect me to be anything other than who I am.  Accept me for me!
  4.  Be your self with me. Never pretend to be something you are not!
  5. Never Lie to me.. Always be up front and straight forward.  I do not like being lied to.

Those are just 5 Ways to win my heart. Though their is several and I am not going into all of them right now! ”