What are some songs that I currently love. Well that one is a bit difficult because I have alot of songs that are my favorite! I am a music person, so I pretty much listen to anything and everything! Music has always been a passion of mine. Though here are links to a few songs that I do like and can listen to them over and over again without getting tired of them!
Ed Sheeran – Thinking out Loud
Justin Timberlake – Mirrors
Backstreet Boys – No Place
AJ McLean – Boy and a Man
Those are just a few of my favorite songs that I love, but I do have a lot more. The list can go on and on but I figure I will leave it with those. If their is a song you think I should listen to that I might like. Please feel free to drop the link in the comments and i will listen to it and tell you what I think of it..
I have a few favorite quotes. Listed below are a few of my favorite! They are so true and I relate to them all to well.
“Never let anyone tell you who you can be. Be Yourself Always ”
“Don’t let Yesterday use up to much of Today!”
“Live life to the fullest, for the future is scarce.” – Nick Carter
“I have no regrets. I believe you have to go through everything to grow and learn.” ~ A. J. McLean
“Believe in yourself.reach down inside. The love you found will set you free. Believe in yourself. You would come alive. Have faith in what you do. You’ll make it through” ~ Joey McIntyre
“Don’t ever let anyone else write your story for you.” ~ Nick Carter
“You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.” ~ Bindi Irwin
For Day 1 – I decided I wanted to Combine a few of them. 20 facts about me, Photo of me and the Behind the blog name! This way It is more of an introduction to the blog and myself at the same time!
20 Facts about me :
– I am a Divorced, though remarried Mother of 3.
– I am a babygirl – Though Alot of you do not know what that means. I will explain that in another post at a later time!
– I believe that love is not about Gender. Love is Love No matter what Gender you dentify with!
– I generally keep to my self. I have a few friends that I will talk to but that is it. I am not a social butterfly that I once was! I blame alot on that though – I will explain that too!
– I am a huge Backstreet Boys Fan – YES STILL!
– I love to read. Reading has always been a passion of mine!
-I love writing. I have written poems and a few short stories. No they have never been published but I have had poems published!
– I have been blogging for a while now and I absolutely love it!
– I am a PC-Gamer!
– I am a Coffee-addict
– Gummy Bears are my favorite!
– I love to color and still do!
– I have alot of stuffed animals.
– I collect Frogs!
– I have 7 tattoos and want more
– I am a Graphic Designer
– I love taking pictures!
– Halloween is my Favorite Time of the Year!
– The Nightmare before Christmas is one of my favorite movies!
– I like watching Scary Movies!
That is 20 fun facts about me.. Now to the reason behind the name of the blog
The way I got the name for the blog is simple. One of my best friends has the domain first and she started a new one so she gave this one to me. I blogged under several different names in the past and honestly A few I loved the names! Though I have been blogging for about 14 years now and love it! For the past 3 years I have blogged under Standing Still and when she gave me this one the name just stuck. A few of my closest friends say the name suits me better! This blog is my journey through depression, divorce and starting over! Though everything else has been threw in the mix but it works! Well that is me and the blog in a nutshell.. I hope you will join me tomorrow!
November is upon us and that means cooler weather, hot chocolate, snuggled up with a blanket and my favorite book! I have decided I am going to Dig out my House of Night Series and start reading those again.. They have decided to make that into a movie so I am excited about that. Also this month I have found 2 Blog challenges that I am going to be taking from each day and posting something. This way I can post like I want to every day!
Here are the two challenges I will be taking from. I found these on Google. I am not sure what blog they are with but I liked them so i wanted to use them and maybe get myself inspired! We shall see! In a bit I am going to start with Day 1 – Your Blogs Name! So be sure to look for that.
Halloween is upon us again and yet I am sitting here reminded of a failure if my life. I am sure most of you who know me by now knew that I was engaged and was supposed to be married October 31, 2016, but that was a mistake and a failure. I guess in a way I blame myself for that. Though yes I have moved on with my life but it still hurts when you actually loved someone and lost everything to be with them. Just to turn around and loose them as well! Though now the only people in my family that actually talk to me is those who were not directly in contact with my ex husband but you know If they want to blame me for everything then let them. It is not hurting me at all. Thankfully my kids are in my life. Though I may not see them as much as I want to but I do talk to them and that is better than nothing at this point. Two of them are adults and well Diana is 14, but I can see her and I can talk to her. I am thankful for that. I guess slowly in time I am trying to forget that but sometimes it is hard. You get to the point to where you learn from your mistakes and i have learned from my mistakes but yet apart of me will still always love him though!
On another note my birthday this year is done and over and went pretty well and I am thankful for that. I could not have asked for a better year! I guess i should get this posted. I will be back! I think in November I am going to try and join a photo a day!
You can’t put a price tag on love or can you? That is the one thing that is on my mind today! Why, the reasoning is very simple.. My birthday is next month and I was thinking about what I wanted.. I do not ask for much on my birthday simple reasons I never get it.. The first thing that came to mind is something I have wanted to do for a while now.. A simple tattoo on my shoulder blade that says Always & Forever. That came to a quick no, because her family does not believe in tattoos. They are the work of the devil and so forth. I have 7 and would I go as far as regretting my tattoos no way in hell.. So thinking about it something else that came to mind is a New Barnes and Nobles Nook because the one I have died and I love reading.. I was told when I get the money and thinking to my self how the hell is that ever going to happen because I have no job because I stay here and clean the house and take care of every one else.. You would think that someone who supposedly loves you and appreciates everything that you do for them as much as she claims she does would spend a little bit on money on the person you care about.. I was sadly mistaken. So it seems a price tag has been put on love.. Hell I have told her for months that I need a pedicure because my heals are getting so bad that it hurts to walk, that has not happened yet and possibly wont happen anytime soon. SO guess what I deal with it.. I was told that I ask for everything.. Ok just because I said something in cute does not mean I want it.. Yes, It would be nice to actually have new clothes that I have not had for years but no that wont happen.. I deal with what I have. Do I want to get out and get a job yes just so i can get away from here. But what then I still wont have money because I have to help with the household expenses while She does nothing because her back is hurt. I hurt to but then again i am told its NOT ALWAYS ABOUT ME! Story of my life.. Nothing is never about me! Can i be put first before anyone else even a dog? No I am last when it comes to everyone!
That is why the post title today.. I feel that love came with a price tag and honestly. The thing is what can you do to change it or fix it when it comes to this point! Enough ramblings for the moment.. I will be back later!
Hello September. The leaves start changing as the fall air sets in. You are a welcomed change. Hopefully you will not disappoint to much! August you will not be missed nor will the roller coaster of emotions. Though I am sure I will have my fair share of them in September as well! It seems that it is going to be another month like August but one can only hope not. I know i have to keep my thoughts positive and my head held high and see how things work. So I guess I will have to try that. I guess things are just not ever working out for me and what I want.. I mean really is this the way September is supposed to be?
Though this month I do plan on blogging more than I have been and getting back to my roots. Not letting anyone stop me from what I want to do or blogging about what feels right! I have gotten away from what I like doing only because I have let other people tell me what to do.. No More! With that I will go and I hope to see more of you!