Thinking Out Loud – I wish I could actually say how I feel to people and they actually understand it! Thinking back on the past and how things went and how you felt.. It is something that you can never forget no matter what lies ahead for either of you. Do I think things could have been different? Yes, but things happen in our lives for a reason and honestly sometimes you have to go with the flow of things.. Though sometimes you want to go back and change the past and you realize that you can’t.
How I feel about all of that takes a toll on you every single day. Especially when you loved someone and yes they loved you back. But they were not willing to give up one thing! It is something that tends to play the what if game with your mind and heart! It seems to make you wonder would things have changed and you would have been able to be with the one person or would it still be a constant battle. Though sometimes you can not live that battle of what if, especially when you know that it was never meant to be. I wish somestimes you would just understand this and know how I feel. I can tell you so many times but you will never quiet get it. I can’t help you lead your double life!
You know as May ended, I realized that I never really finished the blog challenge and that seems to be the normal thing with me at times. I get busy and not able to blog as much as I want to.
I don’t know why though. It starts off well and then in the end I never end up finishing things. Photo challenges are the only ones I tend to do but sometimes not even those. So i think I will do challenges at my own pace. It seems to be the best way to do it well for me anyway!
So maybe what I think I am going to do is just do posts when I can do them and try and start blogging at least a few times a week and do things as much as I can!
Caring for others seems to be about the only thing that I do anymore. I mean I take care of everyone, but honestly you get used to it! You ignore what you want and need and put everyone else before you! Ignoring how you feel about everything and putting others before you! Not having the money to do anything on your own especially when you lost your job in order to take others to Doctors appointments!
But what can you do. It is part of life as well as something you seem to get used to anymore!
Let me see what was the last piece of real mail that I actually received. Thinking about it, I really do not get any mail unless it is junk mail or something like that. The last piece of real mail I received was a letter from my brother and my host packet for the Color Street Party I am having. You can click on the link to order from the party.
For those who are not sure what Color Street is. It is actually pretty Simple to do.. It is Nail Polish Strips that take a few minutes to apply and last up to 14 days! They are amazing! Especially for those who have a problem with your polish chipping after 1 day of wear.
I really do not get mail. So i am ok with that. Though sometimes I miss that letter from your friend that comes in and you can sit down and tell them about everything!
My favorite clothes is anything leggings and a tank top. Though I do love wearing skirts or dresses.. Heels forget it. I am comfortable in slip on shoes or flip flops. Yes I am the girl who can wear flip flops all year long! As long as i am comfortable i am ok.. I do not do jeans to much but if I have to wear them then i will.. I do not like to feel trapped when i wear a tshirt so it better be baggy so i can actually move. I know i am picky when it comes to what i wear. Hell who isnt really. you want to be comfortable.
My role model has always been my grandfather. He was my best friend. I would and could talk to him about anything and I wanted to be just like him growing up. Some people say my role model should have been my mother or someone like that, but honestly I was never really close to her. She was always somewhere else and not really a role model type.
Other than my grandfather. I would say My Aunt Mandy. She was one of the greatest women I have met. She was always around for her family and friends. When my uncle passed she never once stopped caring about her family!
What is a Hero? That question can mean different things to everyone. Not all hero’s wear caps. They come in all different shapes and sizes.. Honestly Hero’s can wear combat boots and carry and M16! Hell think about it they fight for our freedom!
My hero growing up was my grandfather. He was my best friend and my rock! I talked to him about anything and everything and he was always supportive.
A hero can be anyone you want it to be. Someone you look up to, admire and what not.