In Quarantine is not how any of us expected 2020 to turn out. Being stuck in the house non stop with people who generally are really cranky and moody you tend to want nothing to do with them. It honestly does not help when they despise your child and have not real good reason to. Just because she is not your normal teenager. He is his own person and that is how they are raised. Constantly hearing how bad of a job I am doing raising him and that I am not a mother to him. Makes me think honestly that I am a bad mom and an unfit parent at that. They don’t realize that it weighs heavy on me, I did my best to raise my children and to take care of my children.
Though lately it seems that no matter what I do our say is wrong. I know that no one likes him and that’s the thing. He knows this mainly because no one will say two words to him and they tiptoe around because they are scared of what a 14 year old. Do they not get this is new for him. Not to go out and do things, because of the virus. And partly because don’t think a child needs to go anywhere. That kids should be seen and not heard. I’m sorry I am allowing my child too heave a mind of his own. I have never once told my child that they could be quiet. Then I am told he spends to much time in his room on the phone, watching something or drawing.. Since when is that a problem because I am not making him do your bidding and all the fucking housework.. I am sorry but when you have 3 other adults in the house who is actually capable of doing a few things but wont for one reason or another. Then it all falls back on me then I am told that I am lazy as well because I do not do it right away. God forbid I get up and sit down for a bit and wake up before I jump into chores..
I am the type of person who needs coffee to wake up most mornings.. But seriously when you go to bed at almost 5 am because no one will let you sleep before then and you are getting 4 hours sleep yes you need alot of coffee! Sadly I don’t get that. Maybe 2 cups a day if I am lucky! Sometimes I get lucky and am actually able to sit and relax before jumping into anything. Though honestly that is a rare chance.
Anyways I hope the Quarantine life is treating you better.
Stay Safe and lots of Love!