Thinking Out Loud – I wish I could actually say how I feel to people and they actually understand it! Thinking back on the past and how things went and how you felt.. It is something that you can never forget no matter what lies ahead for either of you. Do I think things could have been different? Yes, but things happen in our lives for a reason and honestly sometimes you have to go with the flow of things.. Though sometimes you want to go back and change the past and you realize that you can’t.
How I feel about all of that takes a toll on you every single day. Especially when you loved someone and yes they loved you back. But they were not willing to give up one thing! It is something that tends to play the what if game with your mind and heart! It seems to make you wonder would things have changed and you would have been able to be with the one person or would it still be a constant battle. Though sometimes you can not live that battle of what if, especially when you know that it was never meant to be. I wish somestimes you would just understand this and know how I feel. I can tell you so many times but you will never quiet get it. I can’t help you lead your double life!