This was a bit of a serious battle with myself over and I’ve pretty much lost telling God that He has made a mistake. That this isn’t something I can do and that I’m too old to do it. He’s insisting and when God wants something, He gets it.
I’ve been working towards my calling. God has opened a door and has called me to be a Lay Minister. I have to apply for the course and take three courses over time if I’m accepted. My pastor will be my mentor and my husband supports me. Truth is I’m procrastinating with every excuse I can come up with and inevitably I’m going to end up running out of excuses. So this fall I’ll be sending in my application and see what happens. If I’m not accepted I’ve come to accept and be happy in the roles I have in the church already and will go from there.