Feeling Invisible

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Ever get that feeling that you are just simply invisible, here to fill a space, or care for the needs of others? But honestly when it comes to you and your needs and wants it is like nothing matters!   That is exactly how I feel at times. Sometimes I think i am here just to care for the needs of others or to fill space, and no one really sees me at all because I am invisible! You give someone your all  and it seems that you get nothing in return!  Sometimes I ask my self if this will ever change but then again I realize no  it wont ever change!

You get use to being treated one way though you wish you were not and you become accustomed to it sadly.  You have to tell your self you deserve better but then you second guess your every thought and wonder are you really with more than what you are used to!

So in the end I am the one who is invisible and always going to be that way! Though maybe some day some one will not always see me this way!

Never Enough

Ever get those feelings like you are never enough for anyone no matter what you do!  How do you make them stop is the biggest question? Tears that fall so easily because its a all you have known and history seems to repeat its self no matter what I do or say!  You give your all to someone and it seems that no matter what it fails miserably!  Making you question everything you do or say! Making you truly think that you are the one who causes everything!  As I sit here trying to get things out the way I want to, tears are trying to form but I try to hide them because I am told I am to emotional. That I need to stop crying because No one wants to hear it!   You are supposed to be here to support me not me supporting you and getting nothing in return!   I  lay awake at night and wonder why is it so wrong to want to be held! To what the attention and the love that I deserve!  I guess I will just forever be NEVER ENOUGH FOR ANYONE!