Feeling Better

I have been feeling  a little bit better. The crying has stopped so that is a plus.  I have yet to discover anything else right now. Though honestly I am so afraid of being alone. I honestly hate being alone sometimes and yes there is nothing I can do about that
really.   I am ok really I am well  I try and be any ways.  Though really and honestly I can not afford another heartbreak.   It seems that is all I am ever meant for is heartache.  I try my best to understand why things happen like this as well as why am I the one destined for heartache.  At times I wonder if  its just because right now I am so scattered and have been stressed. Maybe after the first of the year things will be alot better and there will be no more heart break.    Thankfully I am feeling better about things and that is the only way to be.  I am doing the best I can with everything!   I am managing to get things paid and hopefully caught up maybe.   That one is a tough question though.  Anyways I better close so I can get some rest. I am getting sick and sadly I am so tired.  Sweet Dreams Everyone!