Who Saves You? Sitting here all alone most of the time gives me alot of time to think. I save everyone, but in the end who saves me is the question I am asking myself. Sometimes I need someone to save me instead of me trying to save everyone. Especially now with so much going on in life I am not sure how I am going to make it on my own right now. I do not have a vehicle to really get around much less do anything else. I have to move out of this place due to the landlord being a jerk and not understand anything when it comes to not having a job for a month and no one helping you like they were supposed to. Now I have a job granted it only pays so much and I get maybe 270 after taxes a week so its hard. So I am trying to find a new place to live as well as everything else, it is crazy. I can only do so much with no vehicle, I am ready to scream. So really I ask my self who saves me when I am needing saving? This is not helping my depression at all, it is all that I can do not to cry all the time anymore. I need saving right about now. Lately all I have wanted to do is curl up in a ball watch Netflix and cry. It seems to be my life, I miss Chris so much lately it’s not funny. Sometimes any more all I get is a really busy, a good night and love you. Sometimes I want more and need more. I know work has been crazy for him because he is playing supervisor, but what about your fiancee? Do I matter sometimes? I guess I will find out when he comes home Saturday and Sunday. Possibly both days if I am lucky enough. So I guess we will see how it goes. So I guess then I will see who is saving me.. In the mean time I am saving myself, well more or less letting myself fall farther into this depression and I can’t get my self out of it lately.. I do nothing but work, come home take care of his dog, sleep and go back to work. It is the same cycle to rinse and repeat. Over and over again. I can not even go to the store just to get out of the house. So I am sinking more instead of saving myself. I guess with this only time will tell.